thoughts

finding this tonight has made me happy. i missed coqui on the net.

"like walking in the rain"

it's raining outside. it's raining a lot outside.

this morning when i walked to chapel with rachel i said to her, "gee, it looks like it could snow. like, i mean today." but she said "don't be silly." so i said, "welp, it did happen to snow on my birthday this year. and it also snowed two weeks later on may 18th too."

but, thankfully, it is only raining. and not snowing.

i love raining. it's always raining in mikao's world. there used to be this music group in the early 90s called the party that had a song called "walking in the rain" that i loved. and apparently some group called the ronettes also sang it, or so the web tells me.

this song, and rainy days, always make me think of my husband and how much i can't wait to walk with him, on rainy days, and sunny days too.

I want him, and I need him,
And someday someway wooo I'll meet him
He'll be kind of shy, and real good lookin' too
And I'll be certain he's my guy by the things he'll like to do...

Like walking in the rain (like walking in the rain)
And wishing on the stars (and wishing on the stars) up above
And being so in love

He'll never leave me

"I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in His hands
He knows my name
He knows my every though
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go"

- He Knows My Name, by Tommy Walker

as if

that's all i have to say.

go here

holly now has comments. she's cool. you may remember her from such great adventures as this.

go. comment. go now. she'd be thrilled.

analysis

from kabalarians

"Your first name of Michelle has made you a hard worker with a meticulous sense of detail. You have a great deal of patience and independence, and you can be relied upon to complete your undertakings. You are stable, trustworthy, homeloving, and logical in practical matters, but rather unresponsive to suggestions from others. You resist change. This name does not give you great ambitions, vision, or imagination. It frustrates the expression of your softer, feminine qualities in that you find it difficult to express the depth of your feelings for those you love. It limits you to practical matters of the day, filling your life with detailed routine. hard work, and monotony."

i am never really sure how accurate these things are... especially with this one being something about mental wisdom and eastern philosophy. where do they get their information from? do they just make it up? couldn't it apply to anyone?

but i will admit... i do have a great deal of patience and independence. i can be relied on to complete my undertakings (that's a funny sentence). i am trustworthy, homeloving, and logical in practical matters. i'm not sure how responsive i am to suggestions from others. i don't know if i resist change.

and i resent the fact that it says i do not have great ambitions, vision, or imagination. and the whole monotony thing.

sometimes i do find it difficult to express the depth of my feelings for those i love... but i don't think it's a big thing. should i be more worried about it? hmm... i think not.

those kabalarians, making me worry.

passing comment

"michelle, just keep being you."

the reason

so, the reasons why i hate the computer lab:

a) it is stinking hot in here. like sweaty hot. like the hotness that you experience in an un-airconditioned car on the interstate on a hot summer's day where you stick to the vinyl seats.

b) there are always too many people in here. and they're not quiet.

c) it's not very private. there are people looking over your shoulders. people stop behind you and read what you're reading or what you're typing. ugh.

d) the lights are really bright. like extremely bright flourescent lights.

e) the walk from my house is really long. and in the winter when it's -25, it will be even farther.

but, hey, there are some good things.

a) it's free.

b) it's high speed.

quick

i will write more later, but i just wanted to say i hate the computer lab.

retreat

i got back yesterday afternoon from the 24 hour spiritual retreat i went on... it was good... read a good book, read the Bible, prayed a lot, and took some awesome pictures to boot. :)

last night's sleepover was fun, only three girls instead of four ended up coming, but that was okay. we ended up making cookies and caramel corn, and putting together a bbq grill (actually, they put it together while i watched), and played a good ol' fashioned straight-from-sixth-grade game of truth, dare, double-dare, promise to repeat.

tonight jodi's having a bunch of people over to watch a movie.

and now, the computer lab is closing so i have to go. it's cold outside, and a long walk home.

vegetation

so as if, my good chum holly is blogging. my first real-life-friend blogger. well, i do know some other bloggers in real life, but they're not really my friends and i don't link them, i just happen to know that they blog (does that make me a stalker?).

anyways, welcome to blogdom holly. you make me chuckle, and i miss living with you too... even though i'm not sure how to take "i miss living in a house of 8 girls, even if they were all annoying."

but, seriously holly, get some comments. :)

peter cottontail

i saw a little brown rabbit on the way to the library tonight, under a lovely sky filled with stars and neat clouds and a
full moon to boot.

i miss having the internet at my house. i have to come to the library to post anything here. so, as a result, i am thinking that you guys are going to get a lot less on here than last year (but a whole lot more than over the summer!). i have to come here and think of what i want to say rather than just say stuff. i have to be so much more intentional at remembering what i want to say as well.

i just printed up a couple of copies of my resume and a couple of cover letters. here's hoping for a job. that would (partially) solve my money issues, give me something to do in the mornings, give me somewhat of a daily schedule, and perhaps give me something to do next semester as well that i could count on.

tomorrow at noon i leave for a 24 hour spiritual retreat in the qu'appelle valley with my class. should be interesting. lots of time for aloneness with God, and a bit of fellowship too. looking forward to learning much, as well as having a night away from the 'port.

this weekend rachel is gone home to visit her family in edmonton, so jodi and i are having a good old fashioned sleepover with some friends from the dorm... we haven't yet decided what we're going to do, but probably a little baking and watch some sort of a movie. saturday will involve a trip to moose jaw for operation birthday shirt (which involves the purchase of a t-shirt for decoration purposes) and some groceries and shampoo and conditioner ("shampoo is betta, it cleans the hair." "no, conditioner is betta, it keeps the hair shiny and smooth.") and other such goodies.

anyways, i've gotta write a couple of emails and then toddle on home. i wish i had a bike. i miss biking. and biking makes the trip so much faster.

unresolved

Has the Bible changed over time?
Can I give him my trust?
Can I give it all to Him?
Why did Jesus have to die?

(part of a class exercise where we were asked what questions are still unresolved to us).

past

Does God really exist?
Does He really hear me?
Can I give Him my trust?
Can I give it all to Him?
Could He really have created all of this?
Did Jesus really walk the earth?
Is the Bible true?
Is the Bible accurate?
Has the Bible changed over time?
Why did Jesus have to die?

(part of a class exercise where we were asked what questions we had struggled with in the past).

no, seriously

i'm exhausted.

back to the books
random info for you

today i started class again... a week straight from 9-4:30 every day. i love learning, but man, will i ever be glad when i'm done classes forever! :)

have been busy these days, the other night there was a free starfield concert, which was, of course, fabulous. yesterday i read and did homework all day. tonight i need to do more homework.

the weather has been hot and very grasshopper-y. although, this afternoon it did rain a bit which was nice. now things should perhaps be a little less brown and more green.

i don't have internet at my house this year... which is cruddy, but cheaper to not have. and the library has it for free. but i can't post at my every whim, and have to make a huge effort to come and check my email. well, not a huge effort, but it's a walk.

i miss msn. i haven't yet figured out how people get on it here in the library... since "they" (the librarians) don't want you to, but i see people on it all the time.

i pass my old house every day. i passed by one night and my old bedroom light was on. it was sad. because i wasn't in it.

i am applying for a couple of jobs. money would be a good thing. a very good thing. because i'm trying to do this semester without any more student loans. so, yeah, you can pray for that if you'd like. or you could just send money. ;)

i should go and wrangle up some supper. i miss the prepared meals of camp life. but i like the variety in my kitchen and my cooking better. :)

new school smell

you know that smell, that smell of new school supplies? like new notebooks that haven't been written in, pencils that haven't been sharpened, and erasers that have yet to be used? i love that smell, and that smell to me says the beginning of september like nothing else.

everyone is here for college and i'm not... i'm here for graduate school once again. everyone gets to go to all the fun and boring and annoying sessions that tell you stuff you already know (if you're an upperclassman) and stuff you worry you'll forget (if you're a freshman).

yesterday and the day before however i did sit at registration pretty much all day getting people to sign up for yearbooks, so i got to meet a lot of new people which was fun. i love meeting people. and last night i went to the official college welcome and upperclassman worship thingy with my two roommates. this afternoon and this morning they've been at orientation stuff. i'm taking a break from reading my textbook. unfortunately the library is closed today and i didn't know it would be, or i would be there reading other books for my class which starts on monday. i have a ton of pre-course reading that won't be done. here's hoping for leniency.

i should go and get back to my house and read some more. and maybe make a few phonecalls. i love it that saturdays mean you can make phone calls in the afternoon and not have to pay long distance charges. :)

summer soundtrack

in no particular order:

Sweet Home Alabama – Sweet Home Alabama Soundtrack
Dare You to Move – Switchfoot (Learning to Breathe)
Learning to Breathe – Switchfoot (Learning to Breathe)
I Want You to Want Me – Letters to Cleo (10 Things I Hate About You Soundtrack)
Meant to Live – Switchfoot (The Beautiful Letdown)
This is Your Life – Switchfoot (The Beautiful Letdown)
24 – Switchfoot (The Beautiful Letdown)
Starspin – downhere (So Much for Substitutes)
On Fire – Switchfoot (The Beautiful Letdown)
The Future Freaks Me Out – Motion City Soundtrack
My Stupid Mouth – John Mayer (Room For Squares)
Love Song for No One – John Mayer (Room For Squares)
Back to You – John Mayer (Room for Squares)
Only Hope – Mandy Moore (Walk to Remember Soundtrack)
Peace – Jennifer Knapp (Lay it Down)
Miss You Like Crazy - The Moffatts
Sadie Hawkins Dance - Relient K
Above All - Rebecca St. James
My Redeemer Lives - worship

the interviews (continued)

Questions for Sarah:

1. For how long have you been journaling? When did you start blogging, and how did you come to name your blog?
2. What was your favourite job?
3. Tell us some things that you love about your hometown, and some things that make it unique from other places.
4. What is one of the hardest lessons that God has taught you?


Questions for Sharon:

1. Tell us about some of the joys of motherhood that you didn’t expect before you had children.
2. When did you become a Christian? What is one of the biggest gifts that God has given you?
3. What has been the hardest thing to deal with since you began loosing your hearing?
4. What is your favourite verse or passage of Scripture and why?
5. If you could go back to any time in your life and live a day over again, what day would that be and why?

remember to publish the interview details, and i'm looking forward to reading both of your answers. :)

hello september

well, i arrived here in saskatchewan on sunday night after the loveliest flight i ever had (the clouds and continual sunset glinting off the great lakes was amazing, with a somewhat chatty seatmate) and a not-so-totally-great 18 hour bus trip (but i did meet some interesting people)... but i am here and have been working on settling in.

me and my two housemates, jodi and rachel, are still working on getting our house in order and that will still take a couple of more days as we stored a bunch of other people's stuff over the summer for them that is still in our house.

and, on to other things, this made me smile... now it's out everywhere that i'm the only one. ;)

when i started this blog i wasn't really sure how much of myself i should reveal... like should i use my real name, state my location, etc. so, for a long time, i did stay very vague. but now, you can pretty much figure out who i am, etc, and recently a lot of people have found this blog by looking up "briercrest blog" or something like that. so it's very likely that people from school, people whom i see daily in every day life (although often have not gotten a chance to meet personally) read this or have read this. if that's you, then welcome to my world. nice to have you here. i hope we get the chance to chat some time. let me know that you've been here. :)

now, i must go and track down my syllabi for upcoming classes and buy a textbook and organize my kitchen. have a super day everyone.