worked in the library all afternoon, got a bit of work done on my Bible study which is good, very good. but i need to do a lot more. the gameplan for tomorrw is to get up earlier and get to the library earlier after doing some typing here at home. i invited lowana, kaia, leanne, and leanne over for supper tomorrow so that should be fun. i like lowana, she's very cool, and i don't get to hang out with her that often. i had cory over tonight, i made linguine and tomato pasta sauce with chicken, very very good, even had a salad. we never have salad in this house, so it was a joyous occasion. joanne and i are eating terribly well this week with holly and tamara gone! funny stuff.
i saw my friend amanda's husband mike in the library today, whom i haven't seen in about three years, and he came over and we chatted for a little while. i was sitting with leanne, my roommate from last year, and she commented to me after he left, "michelle, i think it's weird when i see you talk to people i don't know because i don't think of you as knowing other people or people i don't know." that was sad, and weird.
tonight i went to moose jaw with rachel, who lives in our basement, to pick up some movies and go to tim horton's, one of Canada's best kept secrets. seriously, you americans are missing out on iced cappucino and wonderful donuts. and i'm told their coffee is quite superb too, but i don't like coffee. nothing like an iced cap from timmy's, my record is 6 in less than 48 hours, a feat i accomplished this spring.
anyways, rachel and i had a good chat in the car about marriage and stuff. she was telling me that we shouldn't need a guy to complete us, that we should be complete without a guy. i am wondering exactly how i feel about this. i think it's true, we should be complete by ourselves, but when we find that person that God has made for us, we are complete as well. i added that i met so many people this past summer, in and around my age (early 20s) who were panicking because they wanted to get married, find someone to marry, become complete and whole. but if we aren't whole in ourselves, how can we expect someone else to make us whole? i don't want to marry someone who isn't sure of themselves, who doesn't know who they are apart from me. i want to marry someone who is confident of themself. i think that we should compliment as well as complete. i think that i should know who i am and be sure of that before i get married and bring myself into a relationship where it is essential that i know who i am. i don't know if this makes sense or not. it's a touchy subject. maybe i don't know what i'm talking about. but hasn't God created us as whole beings? or do we need to find this wholeness in others?
i find it completely so interesting that lately i have come across a gazillion blogs discussing these same issues of love and marriage and completeness and wholeness and looking for love and wanting to be loved. is it because of this age group i'm in? did our parents discuss this as much when they were our age? or is it just our generation?
"'Cause what I really want to say
Is what the sun would say to the sky
For giving it a place to come alive..."
-Steven Curtis Chapman, "What I Really Want to Say"
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