mikao's world

update

well... i got my paper and my presentation done, only to discover about three hours after handing it all in that i had handed in the wrong disk with my powerpoint stuff on it... so tomorrow i have to go and hopefully do a disk switching. the professor is actually out of town for the week so i should be able to get it from the seminary office still. :) whoops!

i was planning to have a relaxing evening of doing my taxes (chuckle chuckle), when i called a friend from elsewhere and then promptly had a temporary midlife crisis (quarterlife crisis?) so i went to find some friends to talk about it and didn't get anything resolved or figured out.

so then i went with my next-year-roommates to check out the duplex we are living in this fall. i am living with my friend jodi, whom i have known for three years, and hopefully also a girl named celeste, but celeste has to get approved to live out of dorm by the school and she hasn't quite yet so we are hoping that she does. anyways, the duplex is of course much smaller than where i'm living this year, but it's pretty nice. There's a living room, kitchen with attached dining room, two big hall closets, a big bathroom, a laundry/electical room, and two bedrooms. i am excited because i'll still have my own room and i definitely need that. jodi and celeste have agreed to share which is just super. :)

i'm only planning at the moment to be here for one more semester of school, then i'll be done my master's degree and done school. that will be different. i feel like i've been in school forever.

however, some opportunities have come up lately, more opportunities for the summer and beyond that i need to make decisions about. i need to keep reminding myself that it's not about money, it's not about fun, it's not about meeting new people, it's not about guys, it's not about any of that stuff. it's about going where God wants me to go. it's about being moldable in the hands of God. it's about being a tool.

it's just tough not having the simple easy answer laid out before. it's tough having friends say there should be no question in my mind about which is the right option. is there a right option? is there an unselfish option? is there a right place to be?

i know only the Big Man Upstairs knows the answers to those. He knows and He's got everything under control. in my impatience i just wish i knew too.