mikao's world

reckless sense

It is after midnight and my eyes beg me to close them, all the while trying to close themselves. But yet I refuse. Silly me.

Long day, went to Moose Jaw with Rachel and Holly to get baking supplies for our Christmas party this Sunday… which we are beginning to think will be the mother of all Christmas parties, certainly the biggest private non-school sponsored one it town. What were we thinking? The invite list is over 85 people and growing day by day. Certainly not everyone will come, but I think we have ourselves in over our heads. And sure, we can bake a gazillion cookies before Sunday. What, that's only three days away? No problem. Ha ha.

Did not get any homework done today, which is not good since all my assignments for the class I took in the middle of September (Essentials of Youth and Family Ministry) are due December 2. Yes, I will be up all night December 1st.

I have realized too many times this semester that anything I or anyone tell Holly will be repeated to Jodi, and so if we want any personal details of our life, no matter how big or how small, to be repeated and blasted about, hey, we just have to tell Holly. I think this is mostly because Jodi is Holly's only friend at school outside of our household, but still I don't think that she needs to know everything. Jodi was is a friend of mine, but, yeah, I think you know what I mean. Sometimes it is so very very very frustrating. Last night I went with her and a few other people (mixed group of guys/girls) to Subway and I ended up regretting it because it was like hanging with a bunch of teenagers trying to impress each other while I stood like a dork trying to not be annoyed and trying to have a good time but really not being even remotely successful at either endeavor.

I took a girl in the dorm some cookies tonight because she was having a horrible day, and I rode Tamara's bike because I wanted it to be quick. I haven't ridden a bike since before summer… I had forgotten how freeing and invigorating it is. I used to bike all the time in high school, but since college really haven't had the opportunity to much because I've never had a bike here. My freshman year I used to always rent a bike from a friend of mine. Anyways, I ended up going all around town tonight and it was splendid. Saw the Big Dipper (when was the last time I saw it? I don't remember when that was. It has turned a lot since I last did). How can one look at the stars and not believe something Divine has created all this?

I had forgotten that this town has unpaved streets… and very muddy ones at that especially today, I had mud all up the back of my coat and all over my jeans, small sacrifice to pay however for the exhilarating sense of freedom and abandon.

"…let us draw near to God with a sincere heart."
- Hebrews 10:22a