mikao's world

hmm

this afternoon i proofread joanne's paper for her psychology of adult development course, it was about "quarterlife crisis" and the search for identity that 20-somethings have once they are done college. there was a quote in it from erik erikson that i found interesting, something about how the stage we are in now (the early 20-somethings) is intimacy versus isolation... and how we are afraid to get hurt and that is why we don't find love, that we can't find love until we are willing to get hurt.

and then later tonight joanne asked me why i didn't just make a move instead of waiting for him... and what would i do if he (the guy i am particularly fond of) fell in love with someone else and married them, then would i marry this other guy who likes me (whom i do not like in that particular way). this part of joanne's personality frustrates me. my brain doesn't work that way.

i am not sitting around waiting for someone to ask me out so i can fall in love with them, nor am i going to marry someone just because they like me, oh, i am not sure if this makes sense or not even, but this frustrates me. i can't properly thought process what i am trying to say into words... it's late, i need sleep.